I mentioned a while ago that I was working on writing my autobiography. It sort of happened accidentally. Because I was/am frustrated with my life, I was thinking back and trying to make some sense of it. I began writing, expecting to write a few pages worth. I got that far but wasn't through. I kept going mainly just because I wanted to finish what I'd started.
I started writing for myself, to get a picture of my life and attempt to see if I could gain some understanding. I kept going and decided to make it something I felt I could share with people for a similar reason (though coming from a different angle). I wanted to have something to explain myself, to offer a defense as to why my life is like it is, why I'm not making money and why I need help. A secondary purpose is just to share more of myself with those who know me already.
A concern did cross my mind recently. I always hear about how we shouldn't be self-centered and self-focused. I'm worried that maybe I am being too self-focused--it seems like an autobiography could be an ultimate expression of self-focus. Yet I don't feel like it's bad to write. However I do worry that I am trying to make myself look better than I am. I joke that I'm trying to make myself appear strong and brave against significant opposition, while appearing humble in the process.
Anyway, I finished up a first draft a few months ago. I just sat on it though, because I had the sense that it was horribly boring and needed some significant rewriting in order to be ready to share. A week or two ago I pulled it out again and started rewriting. I just finished a rewritten draft and have been working through editing it. I hope that it will be done and ready for release soon, perhaps a month at most.
Posted on 06/14/2010 at 7:55 PM
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